Arrgghhh.....

I'd done something wrong again.Oh God,forgive my sin.
I'd made two people whom never known each other into serious trouble,it may be nothing to them but then it is darn serious to me.I feel so stupid about myself,my mouth never keep quiet,why am I so busy body?Lim,just keep quiet and sit beside listen to what people say is enough d ma!Why are you so stupid?Why cant you just be clever a little bit?I hate myself~
See now what had you cause?Two people into stupid trouble just because of you!
This includes the guy I like the most,and now I feel that our distance becomes further and it maybe never get close.I feel so sorry to him.
Maybe I was the one who think too much,this is what he always keeps on telling me.He's too good to me until I felt that I'm very bad!I always seek for him whenever I wanted to without hesitate his situation or whether he hates it or not.Miss Lim Devon,people treats you as ONLY NORMAL FRIEND OF HIS!
Can you just please wake up!?Omigah...
Dunno why I just have the feeling of not telling him anything and let it be.I dun wanna disturb his life no more,I dun wanna be in his life anymore.I just brought lots of stupid stuff in him.I feel so stupid and I hate it when his mood was being distract because of me.He just finished his SPM and he should be enjoying his magnificent holidays with close friends,gone to splendid trip.Or maybe doing something which is benefit before going to his National Service,after the NS thingy,he should be on his way for further studies,never come back.We may dun have the chances to meet again.This may be the best choice!
I dun wanna forget him,I dun wanna give him any bad impression on me.I just wanna be a normal friend to him.
I wanted more than that but however I'm really not his cup of tea nor biscuit neither coffee.
How could God let me fall on him?He's just too perfect for me.
Our distance are too far away.I should not be in his life!
I promise I wont call or even text him or find him in MSN nor Friendster anymore!
I want him to be happy just because he is really happy living in his life.

P/S I LOVES HIM,and now I realize what is the meaning of missing someone!