Tired of realities.

I dun update my blog for this few days bcoz I really need to make up my mind,clear them and format everything until now only I decided that it's time for a new post!
Ma friends came to me just now for a chat,and this is my very first experience sharing thought with a male friend about the word "L.O.V.E"!
This made me have different point of views!He's actually was not the type of person I expect him to be,but then to the opposite side,he's much more better than I expected!He just feel so distress about his feelings and really dunno what to do.That's when I truely felt his feelings towards the girl he loves so much.He told me how was his feelings especially when I felt that he is really sad.I sat beside there,wondering what should I say.Should I just shut the hell up or gives some advise or whatsoever!I was scared that what if I said the wrong thingy again(That's what I usually do,I know I'm stupid!).What if that makes him even more sad?That is why love is hard to define in words but to feel with heart.
Haiz~
Well for my opinion,that girl dun deserve his love at all.She's a shame to all the girls around the world and she shouldn't be a girl! I know I'm slightly a little rude but then she really s*ckss!How can she treated a guy who loves her so much with lies and bad attitudes?Dun she feel bad bout herself?Weird la she~
If any guy would sacrifice his love towards me or even loves me as how my friend to that s*cky girl,I swear to God by my name that I rather shorten ma life's for a year!That's was my word.
I never met any guy who would done that for me,even if I had!They may just walked by ma life.
I'm tired of this life,I dun mean it's meaningless!But then the realities really made me feel disgusting and irritated.Just felt a little tired of this life and it's time to relax ma mind and think of ma future path.Whether I'm suitable to be in a relationship or not,whether I'm someone's cup of tea or not,whether who's gonna be ma Mr.Right or whether how would people define the word "L.I.F.E"!
I'd learnt alot this few days,how to accept the truth,the realities,ma wrong,ma right,the straight,the narrow,the ups and downs!I felt like a year in a day and keep thinking and thinking what I was trying to seek,the answers!Then I found out that answers aren't important.What's important was happiness!
Oh ya,an accident happened just now morning and I dun really know where was the destination!Haha...Lame nia~
There was a father and his daughter on a motorcycle and they was infront of a lorry of mud or sand(Just imagine how big was the lorry).Then the stupid darn lorry driver just sped trough the traffic light when it turned red!What the f*ck~
Then banged on the pity father and daughter!That darn driver still dun stop and continued to drag the father and daughter!WTF AGAIN!
Then he run down the lorry and gone away,this was the f*ckest side.If I was there,I'll definately used everything ma father teached me in ma Muay-Thai lesson and beat him to death!He's such a jerk~
Then leave behind the father was dead immediately on the road and his daughter survived from a broken neck,nose and some bone which I dunno how to explain!(Can you imagine how pain was that for a young girl whom aged 23!?)
Wanna know how I knew this news?Haha...
It was from a hairstylist of ma couzies!She told us and I was shouting "yerr...yeee...OMG!" all the way she ceritA...Really pitty la wei!Haiz,she still can do lots of stuff in her bright future!What a pity~
This makes me afraid of motorcycle!Haiyo~
And also remind me of him!He was on motorcycle quite often.Guy's usually loves to speed which I dun really understand!!And started to worry of his safety,why am I so kepo!?Cham nia~
Oh ya,he came too just now to ma house but we chatted not more than ten words!Awkwards la wei,really ttooottt nia~~
I still misses him everyday!What to do!?Feelings!!
Gtg,chaoz~

P/S I STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM!