What To Do!?

I really hate the feeling of giving up before trying to get the answer!
I dun like being so coward,but this time really make me feeling like shit all the while.I sleep,I dream of him.I'm awake,I miss him!What the~
I saw him just now evening I was like OMG!
Such a coincidence,I was not expect to meet him today.Or maybe I'll see him from far!Haha...
I was feeling myself as a maniac la wei,gerliii nia~
Back to the point,his smile was so attractive!I waved to him,he smiled back.
Aiiyyoyo,faint nia!CHAM CHAM CHAM~~~
I tried to seek for him alot of time.But then he was so busy la,everyday enjoying his after SPM life.Going to the National Service thingy must be very distress for him,botak!Hahaha...
Three months la wei,sure will miss him like hell,even he's here also miss him ady,what if he went there?Further studies?Haha...Think too much ady,Miss Lim~
Ma besties told me that if he is seeking for someone whom is his cup of tea then he dun deserve my love,loving someone is not because of his/her physically but then his/her inside out!Ma besties even told me that if that was the person you wanted to be with then you wont even care what kind of person he or she is even if he or she is not the cup of tea or biscuit or even coffee!You'll just feel that's her/him at the first place~
Thanks for the advice besties,I really loves you like crazy!
In ma mind,he's important,he's special,he's extra-ordinary,he conquered my heart,he owned my soul.But then still missing something!I seek for that for so long,then I realize that just now when I was talking to ma besties!That is the gap between the special someone and me.
He's was like trying to avoid me recently,maybe I was a little annoying.But I was just trying to seek for the answer in him.I'm finding the opportunity to talk to him,but there's always no chance for me to talk to him.
I hate the feeling of giving up before asking,but then when I still have the chance to lose or still having the courages to let go,I really really wanna choose to gives up.
I'll make up my mind in two days time!This problem are making my mind getting older by a year in a day time!
Oh God~ What should I do!?
To say or not to say,confession!!